4 REAL, 4 CERTAIN, & 4 ETERNITY

If I were given a second chance to make a speech before all the 10 people present today and all the others who cannot come, it would be like this:

 

Many thanx to Joseph, my mentor. Thank you for being here tonight and thank you for all the help you have given to me whenever I turned to you ever since the first moment I've been in America. I see you as my older brother that makes me feel like being a place never too far away from my home...

 

Thanks to Wayne. Thanx for giving us a nice ride and I really appreciate your always being there. You are really interesting and funny person and I would have a lot less fun without knowing you...

 

Thanks to Renshao. You understand me most and you are the one that can always cheer me up. Thank you sooo much for your birthday gift part I and part II! Although you are a talkative Singlish speaker, I am still grateful to have known you and I would cherish all the fantastic journeys that we went for together. You are the reason that someday I will pay a visit to Singapore...

 

Thanks to Pius, Queenie, and Alex. Thank you for being here with me. It is really a nice and sweet thing to share a precious piece of memory of staying here for a year with you guys. Viva CUHK!

 

Thanks to Yuno. Thanx for your treat in "fat slice pizza". Thanx for your nice T-shirt!@@@@!!! Just call me and I will always be available! Welcome to I-House and we can hang out more frequently la. I will go to Korea for sure to visit you!

 

Thanks to Cho. You are very nice and funny and very Korean guy! You should invite me to your dorm from time and time. I like you, too. I wish we could someday go for a Korean BBQ with Yuno and somebody else!

 

Thanks to Sarath. You are NOT invited! But I like you, buddy! Make sure that I will have cheesecake as you promised! I wanna make better friends with you!

 

Thanks to Siuyau, my dear roommate and CUHK mate! It's nice and happy to share such a stupidly small with you haha. Thanks to you I am feeling very very comfortable a!!!! I can't ever find a roomamate nicer than you are!

 

Thanks to Jessica, I DO appreciate your willing to come to come. It's really pity that we cant make it Karaoke tonight but I feel loved when I see your birthday card! It's really really nice meeting you!!!

 

Thanks to Atali, Cindy Nan, Darlene, Michelle, Fiona, Meng Wei, Tracy and every old friends who is still thinking of me! You are my dearest friends ever!

 

What I want to conclude is that, I do cherish all the friends that appear in my life! Your stepping in my life DOES make a difference! I LOVE you ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!

Sept 15 (Fri) A second visit to Fisherman's Wharf

Yeah I made it! I went to San Fran after my last class ended. Although my STAT assignment sucked, it didn't make me feel worse at all! I arrived Fisherman's wharf at around 5:30 pm and bought souvenirs [Miss Cindy I bought one for you!]. Gosh I love the lazy lions and fat sea-gulls. I love the Italian bread-bowl chowder! I love the crab/shrimp poorboy sandwich! I love the mint chocolate ice cream cone! I was soooo full that night! Enjoyable!

 

Sept 16 (Sat) Football Game

Go Bears! We said. I am feeling so proud of being a Californian although Im not really... Fantastic American football, perfect goals, and passionate people! Thanx to Meggie for giving me a free ticket (worth $40)! Viva for our honorable Berkeley-blue gear! Viva Cal! Viva Bay AREA!

 

Sept 17 (Sun) Trip to Stanford U

Standford U is such a luxury and nobody will forget her magnificence! The campus is impressively beautiful with Spanish styled architectures. It is a PALACE rather that a university. I see the rich students everywhere. They are the ones born with "silver spoon"... Well thanx Siuyau and Renshao! Having a power Jumbo-Juice is really really enjoyable thing in such a crazy sunny day! Stanford~ My Gosh~~ It is a never-to-be-realized dream...

 

Sept 18 (Mon) Pre-birthday eve

Happy b-day to me and Angela! Now it is still Sept 18 but I know it's Sept 19 in China now. So sad to be 20. I am no longer a teenager! When I think of my birthdays in my precious first 18 years, it was full of sweetness, happiness and the feeling of being loved. Well I am never again a kid, no matter how I wish I could still be. Anyway, the Shanghaiese restaurant is nice. Thanx for Michelle, YJ, Leo, Tiger, Siuyau, Angela, Tu Man for being with me. You are with me through such a hard and sad moment....

 

Sept 19 (Tue) WALTER'S Birthday PARTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

See what's gonna happen tomorrow. I love you guys!

有的时候很为当初自己极没有勇气地选了business觉得没用，现在换成了Stat major，所以看到无数wearing an asian face而到处说自己属于Haas的人心里终于能够鼓起勇气的鄙视了。读过两年Business，发现没学会除了吹水放屁以外的东西，GPA很高，反应很慢，英语很差，人显得很蠢。现而今终于能用这短暂的一年鼓起勇气学一门science了，感觉像是已经陪了葬的人又从棺材里钻了出来，下了别人一跳也吓了自己一跳，然后一想到回去以后还要重操旧业，就好像别人说“你骨子里还是一具僵尸”一样，不过时间就是用来荒废的，只不过有些人是为了自己的未来陪葬，有些人为了自己的过去陪葬吧。

 

我昨天已经兴致勃勃地在amazon.com买了两本教科书，也就是两门我无论如何都会上的stat的major，尤其是他们和我那半瓶子醋的烂得不能再烂的数学擦出火花的时候，将是一幅多么奇妙的图景啊。well，我想这可能是我最后一次绝地反击。

Well dear all, I would say thank you for dropping in here from time to time. I confess that I am a busy writer, especially since the layout of the MSN's so called "live spaces" become so 核突... I feel cool staying here, iHouse @ Berkeley, where people are really helpful and nice. My mentor, Joseph, is extremely a nice guy (1 in a 1,000,000). He will drive me to San Francisco to take a look at Chinatown there. Miss Maggie Zhang is also a nice alumnus, and she added me into the list of bus trip which will take place on Sunday.

 

The only pity is that 1) food here is really a nightmare and it is MANDATORY to have meals in IHouse to avoid loss... and 2) I feel I hate speaking English after finding out that all the students speak excellent English...

 

The class will start next Monday. Again, many thanks to my friends who are taking care of me, and I will send you postcards someday!

 

Let's scream: Go bears!

I am in Incheon Airport, Seoul, Korea now, accompanied with Xue Yang and Lee Siu Yau. They don't know I am using MSN now, so shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I have just taken a SHOWER. It is soooooo coooooooooooooooool!!! Fatigue and unhappiness have completely gone (temporarily). The only pity is that it costs me approx. 60 HKD for such a 20-minute courtesy...

 

So lonely. So beautiful. ;)

昨天和女王胡平樊婧享受了一段极其美妙的时光，最后在四人方桌上酣畅淋漓地激扬文字一番，得出的结论依然是，中学那没心没肺不解风情白痴且快乐的生活原来是怎样的享受，进了大学以后方才感叹道人心复杂而我们依然坚持着单纯善良的秉性又是怎样的难得。8月5日那个周末，精神领袖般的关山一家又将“风尘仆仆”的回到京城，每个人在围绕他们的世界里被打造两年以后的重新聚首，大概又是一阵人生百态的唏嘘，也许有难过有孤独，也许有成长有造就，一个个辛酸或者温暖或者滑稽的故事，也许只有见到了彼此熟悉的不能再熟悉的面孔以后才有兴致娓娓道来。

 

昨天一路上回家的时候，无意间shuffle到这么一首歌。我忘了它associated的是哪一个年代和感受，也许是高二辉煌时期某一次无心插柳的钟爱，也许是高三无聊之余某一次踏破铁鞋的惊喜，然而这不是一首多么高级的曲子，不过突然让我的觉得几年以后你也不是你，我也不再是我，然后他和她未必还在一起，然而所幸友情这东西历久弥坚。

………………话不能一口气说太多，从小就吃这亏所以险些憋死了好几次，知道现在才老实了。

 

- 关于DSE2050。能说的都说过了，斗争也好，生气也罢，现在分数公布了，唯一的感觉就是被玩儿了。被Jacqueline玩儿了，被一组"IFA"玩儿了，而且被玩儿的时候还帮人数钱呢。以后我得把话摆这儿，哪个颓人锁人恶人想学塔利班和我玩玉石俱焚的，我奉陪；要是秉着傍大款的心态，我自身尚且难保啊。

 

- 关于回京以后的种种。26日的“回京历险记”跟我往日的怪梦的怪诞程度有一拼，不过离谱离到家的还是第二天和我做同一航班的常远同学。呵呵，人品是攒起来的，也是花出去的，大难不死者必有后福啊。之后我妈得意地向我展示她的皈依证，从此一代“传民居士”惊现江湖，然而我家3人一儒一释一道共存，可真是印证了世界大同的最根本理念啊。我后来向家母表示，本人以将老庄之道终生信奉，而佛教最忌讳之贪嗔痴慢我是样样具备，而我更是有着几时能重振周家名门望族的痴心妄想，有着见着怂人搂不住火儿的分别，和对吃喝玩乐的疯狂执著，所以断断变不成佛菩萨，被家母嗤之以鼻一番之后，留下我的挚爱《老子》后扬长而去。不过后来她也不得不表示，老子虽然不如释迦牟尼看得透彻，可是他的大智慧还是很吸引她，最后以净空法师的“世界宗教乃一家”的论断做升华，一家三口继续过上了幸福快乐的生活。话说回这几天天天接受净空法师的开示，对世间大道的理解真可谓更上一层，反思了一溜儿够以后，我周某人觉得从此以后重新做人，做一个受职业道德的道家弟子~

 

- 今天也换了一首新歌儿。歌手Cher曾在1998年世界性的大红大紫，是西班牙几十年来最有影响力和最伟大的歌手之一， 然而她（他？）也是走“安能变我是雌雄”的不败路线，希望有着各种癖好的各位赏识。

 

- 最后说几句。我刚才看到高三那时候大家给我写的小纸条，回想起中学六年温馨洋溢的似水年华，不可一世的无尽辉煌，还有我那无数次已经绝迹了的招牌式的爆笑，我觉得生活讽刺的很夸张。不过归根结底，有那么一段的刻骨铭心已经很让人知足了。

我周某人“每天丢一样东西”的时代一去不复返啦！此论断的证据主要有以下两个，一是今天早上去10楼洗澡的时候与我的牙刷牙杯致命邂逅，至此，除了我落在美利坚合众国驻香港领事馆的一瓶子白开水以外，其他所有走失的野都悉数归来，失而复得的完美循环到此为止；二是在电脑房看到了无人认领的摄像机支架和10块钱，标志着“每天丢一样东西”的伟大事业已经产生了新的继承人。从校巴上掉的手机、宿舍里不见的空调卡、丢在深圳邮局的箱子、美国领事馆的水瓶子、图书馆复印机里的通行证、诡异的自动回到书架的借的教科书、美心地上的钱包、Franklin桌子上的港币、BALab的移动硬盘、5楼厕所里的钥匙、文澜堂电脑中心的水杯、KKL的雨伞、到百佳收银阿姨看到的信用卡，这是不丢不知道，一丢吓一跳，自己居然有那么多东西可丢；好在家当们试图“海底总动员”的时候总有贵人出手相助，演变出如今“千金散尽反复来”百花齐放的圆满结局。只可惜6月份以来这两个礼拜想必是人品消耗了不少，脑神经绷断了数根，奇闻轶事也算是入了档，左邻右里添油加醋地欢笑一番势必衍生出形形色色的新版本；反省之余，推理破案能力也增进不少，而今天画龙点睛的来这么一个异地重逢的局面，更能将这人世间千变万化的机缘巧合升华到两条真理，即是“以不变应万变以解天地玄机”，和“自己才是自己最终的救世主啊”。

 

说回那牙刷牙杯子的问题，若不是9楼的两位阿姐在男厕所恋恋不舍地倾了1个多小时的偈，我也不至于光临10楼，今天洗澡的时候为了把眼镜藏起来，才发现欲藏之处居然有故牙刷牙杯屹立于此，想必多日之前，亦即是上一次9楼阿姐在男厕所开茶话会的时候，曾在此处藏匿牙刷牙杯各一只，结果大摇大摆的沐浴完毕之后，就将这孤苦伶仃的牙具留在那诡异的十楼，此段记忆也随之消失；幸好试图逃走的牙具毕竟是命数未到，摊上了一个10楼那个很少爱挖坑扫洞的阿姐，才无奈地伫立了几个昼夜之后重回我怀抱。爱藏东西确实是我的癖好之一，从小到大，喜欢的和不喜欢的，隐私的和纯粹为了娱乐的，都遍布我家各个角落，久而久之自然记不得藏到了那里，结果不抱任何希望的问妈问爸以后，他们总是用“不就在……”这个充满鄙视的经典句型让我吐血，真是小儿科的伎俩啊~ 后来从真藏变成在想象中藏，从藏东西变成藏自己，就再也没有人有机会鄙视了，记得小时候天天做梦玩捉迷藏，从锻炼智力和胆量逐渐演化成走火入魔的境界，以至于现在每天都做迷宫逃生和谍中谍的梦。随着人越长越大，脑子越来越糊涂，“主动藏”和“随手扔”的界限也模糊了，不过好歹是殊途同归，怎么样想都没线索，怎么样翻箱倒柜都还是找不到。对于丢东西这个现象，我妈的结论不是自理能力低就是心浮气躁不踏实，她老人家总是不愿意承认糊涂的根本原因是脑子蠢这个现实，我猜想她是铁了心要和“天生”“基因决定”这类词撇清关系，糊涂就得赖自己。

 

我那天跟我妈忧心忡忡地说，我要是养了一孩子，把它弄丢了我得多难过啊，八成最后得想不开自杀。这个忧虑在我心中萦绕了很久都未能释怀，因为我小的时候被我某一个二姨夫丢过一次，后来真的是苍天有眼才没把我卖到河南农村去，最后想着想着觉着爸妈真伟大，养了我快20年了，能凭自己积攒的福祉请来贵人保佑自己的孩子；我这样冤孽缠身的肯定不行，随时随刻都有丢孩子的危险，现在把人品就都用完了，以后就肯定要过着“每天都痛心疾首”的日子了……

天机不可过多泄漏。只说一句，被诅咒的处女座们，是咱们小心的时候了。[玄机藏在这首歌中]

 

- 今天的"紧张刺激"的第二个Lab Test我们又以满分完成。6个人分成简单三组，各自写各自的program。温馨在我旁边一路协助我，在第一个time slot结束的前一分钟，我相当沉着地跟Eva说我最后一步的IfThenElse出现了不可挽回的问题，宣布投降。紧接着噩耗传来，Jacky的program设计出现问题，又一个据点沦陷了，就剩下多次谎称上厕所然后上课的时候就不见了的CPK了，所幸的是他并没关键时刻掉链子从而营造出亲者痛仇者快的效果。第一个time slot完成之后，宣布program完毕的组们纷纷站出去，Jacqueline检查完以后，我们Lab Test的consecutive的full mark就到手了[上次full mark是我一手操控的Access]。之后我将CPK收入我们负责做Database这个工作里，我的另外一个手下奇蠢无比，不过还好脾气不错，在我的百般辱骂和白眼之后，还在那嘻嘻哈哈地搞不清楚局面。我颐指气使地分配完任务，就放CPK和那个人先后走了。Webpage的那一分组都十分认真，讨论室里面传来的阵阵笑声说明Jacky，温馨和Eva似乎也乐在其中……虽然2050让人时时都保持在一个"紧张刺激"的精神状态，虽然Jacqueline对我们不停地折磨、威胁和一会这样一会那样，每次上课考试或者group meeting的时候，还是会莫名其妙的开心。能找到一组好的组员的话，没上过2050的父老乡亲们，去take Jacqueline的课吧。

 

- 又是一年高考啊~祝金钊和李涵汀以及广大的实验的后人们顺利渡过！